“As we stood there, I realized that all these years, we never really talked. But that day we started, and I knew that we would be talking for a long time.” <3
You know what’s so special about a first love? It’s that when you find it, you’re still too young to know the feeling of a broken heart. You’re still too young that you have yet to build those walls that you’ll probably eventually learn to build someday. And I think that makes all the difference… Because that’s innocence right there. It’s that innocence that made you just fall freely into something as unknown as love. You give your heart to someone for the very first time, that you leave nothing for yourself. You give the whole of it, because you haven’t lent it, or given a portion of it to anyone else before him or her. And it’s amazing and crazy that it’s also kind of stupid, but you couldn’t care less, right? And when it ends, it doesn’t really end, because what sets apart your first love from all the rest is that for once, you gave your all. And because you did, you can never really get it back the way it was, the way your heart was, when you first gave it away. I guess that’s why they say it never dies, you know? Because a piece of you just stays with your first love forever—whether or not he or she still cares.
You were unmistakably my first love, and I will never forget that. Even though we both have grown apart, both changed, a piece of you always remains with me. You will always be a part of me because you unknowingly showed me what I deserve, and every guy I’m with for the rest of my life will be compared to you.
And it was through falling flat-on-my-butt in love with him that I realized the most important thing about first love: as deep as it is for you at the time, it’s only a teaser for even more amazing things to come. And whether first love ends dramatically or hurtfully or simply, eventually all the emotional fog surrounding it clears and we can see that first love is so special because it’s one of the few experiences in life when we follow only our heart – not reason, not “rules,” not what other people say. Maybe that’s why we all hold on to our first love in some way – why we miss it or long for it, want to reclaim or redo it. Because first love opens our eyes to that feeling that everyone has been talking about, singing out, writing about. It makes you feel like you’ve crossed over from not knowing to knowing. With first love, everything is new and the possibilities it awakens in you are exhilarating. ~ Jessica Blatt
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So beautiful and true. :)